Those of you who have purchased my second book Bitzy’s Story: Healing the Pain of Silence, from Amazon.com or ordered it from Barnes and Noble, and read it, have heard about one of my childhood Christmases. The one in which I was very sick.
This event takes place the year after the Christmas in Bitzy’s Story. Christmas Day was always the big celebration in my childhood home. My older sister PollyAnne, my older brother, Owen, and I would get up as soon as the sun crossed the horizon, lighting the surfaces of the windows. We’d tip-toe down the stairs to the living room. Our five stockings hung over the fireplace that didn’t ever hold a fire. (Coppy, my baby brother, hadn’t yet joined the family.) Those stockings were stuffed with things, and as the others got older, there were gifts on the mantel and floor. We’d gather up our loot and head back upstairs to wake my parents, who were wide awake by now. All three of us crowded onto the bed with Mom and Dad, who were still in their jammies, but sitting up, waiting for the fun.
This particular Christmas, I was sitting close to my mother’s feet but facing her so she could see my reactions. I tore into one gift and was happy with what I got. (I don’t remember now what was in the wrapping paper.) We handed my mother the large pieces of paper to smooth and fold for wrapping any gifts in another year. By the third package, I stopped unwrapping and turned the gift over in its hiding place. Then I stopped altogether and just sat looking at the paper.
“What is it, Honey?” Mother asked. “Why did you stop opening your presents?”
“The wrapping paper! It’s the same as the paper on a big package under the tree. How did the paper on that package from you and Dad get on my stocking gift from Santa at the North Pole?” No one in the room took a breath. (Remember, PollyAnne was ten years older than I and Owen, nine years.) They had been sitting on this secret for a long time.
My mother, always the one to explain, said, “Well, you know Santa Claus is the spirit of Christmas giving. And it is much more fun to have him seem like a real person, living in a real place, doing a real job to make this a happy time. His behavior of giving is why I sometimes say to you, think about what you are giving to your sister, not what you will get.”
“So this is why we give away gifts instead of keeping them for ourselves.” I summarized what I’d heard. “If I should have a younger brother or sister, I’d have to keep the secret, too?”
“Yes, you would.” My siblings were breathing again by now, and my father smiling silently.
Mother finished her explanation with, “This is the day we set aside in the Christian tradition to mark the birth of Jesus Christ, but it is also the day we spend doing what he taught us to do; give away what we have to others who might not have so much. So we choose to show our love for one another with thoughtful gifts.”
I sat somewhat stunned.
“Are you old enough to handle a Christmas with this meaning?” Mother asked.
“I guess, but I’ll miss my old Santa Claus and The Night before Christmas.
“You don’t have to give up the story. Just remember for what it stands.” my mother ended.
And it is a good thing she told me that because almost every Christmas Eve, my husband, Sy, and I would recite from memory The Night before Christmas to our children, he recites the first half, and I finish the story. Once in a while, in the present time, one girl or the other will say, “I wish Dad were still here to recite The Night Before Christmas with you. I’ll respond, “I can do the whole thing!”
And with a sheepish grin, they will say, “It’s not the same.”
Happy Christmas to all of you, and peace to humankind!